all I have to say is.. thank goodness I STAND at work

Sooooo Ben apparently felt the need to bring back out BDSM with fury. We haven't really done much extreme stuff lately.. something that I was really missing.. as it does help keep me grounded. But what can you do? Life happens... you just have to make the effort to keep it up. I mean, I couldn't really remember the last time he flogged me. I guess I could go back through my archieves and see.. but I think that may have made me sad. I think that this whole IUD really put a big strain on us both... but anyways!

Last night... one word to describe it... WOW. It was intense and moving and grounding... well I could go on and on trying to describe it.

We had went to take a shower early in the evening... around sevenish. I had went into the bathroom to do my preshower ritual. I always make sure there are no stray hairs around my eye brows and such... so I was doing this.. when Ben came up beside me. He wrapped his arm around my neck pulling me close to him then began spanking me over and over.

Honestly, I've become soft...my tolerance for pain is not what it once was. It is amazing to me how quickly it goes away. So the blows to my ass were not comfortable to say the least, but I will tell you this.... I was wet... instantly.

Before he finished he leaned into me... growling into my ear...

"After our shower.. I'm going to whip you... hard. Now go start the shower".

I did as I was told and got into the shower. I helped wash his body.. completely turned and aching to feel him inside me. After he was done washing, he shoved me to my knees and fucked my face. When he got his fill, he left me wanting more.

I finished showering and got out.. dried off and did my after shower stuff.. hurrying so that I could actually finish before he came to drag me into the bedroom. When I entered the bedroom I went to my knees again.... taking him deep into my mouth... though this didn't last long.

He pulled me to my feet and shoved me over the bed. I felt the flogger slap against my back... hard... unforgiving. His assualt was the same.. never letting up... and for the first time ever... brought tears to my eyes. Not just the watery, welling up of tears... this was full on sobbing... and all I could think was that it hurt... and that I hoped that he would not stop.

He switched up a little and had me suck his cock while he flogged me... this time he spoke... mostly to amuse himself I'm sure.

"Know what my goals are tonight?.... Well do you?... HMMM??"

All I could say was I dunno in between having my face fucked.

"Well one is that I'm going to have you begging for more and the other is... I'm going to bruise you tonight".

This of course made me even more wet. He didn't let up... he flogged me.. my back.. my legs.. my ass... and fucked my face.. forced me to make myself cum over and over to the pain he inflicted on me. I may have been crying.. but I was in pure bliss.

Then. He stopped.. leaving the flogger on my back... and told me not to move. I made sure not to move an inch. I heard him leave the room and go into the kitchen in which he was rattling around in the drawer... I felt a sense of panic come over me... knowing that that must only mean he was after a spoon.

I was right.... he smacked me with it over and over.. which made me cry more. He later told me that he wasn't actually hitting me that hard... but it sure as hell felt like it. He hit my ass then began moving down my legs till he got to my feet. I freaked and pulled away.. falling to the ground and pulling my legs into me. Not a good idea.

He yanked me up and tossed me onto the bed again and spanked my ass hard. I wasn't going to move again. He went back to work on me with the spoon.. me crying out in agony.... it was not pleasant... but.... I would so do it again. Funny how that works.

Finally he decided to fuck me... and kept flogging me. Before I knew it... fucking my ass came into play... and he was deep inside my ass... claiming my body.

So yeah.. it was freaking amazing... and seriously.. its a good thing I don't sit at work.. that would have been interesting. I have this amazing bruise on my ass with stripes from the spoon. I do like the way it feels to have to sit.. but doing it all day would have been hard I'm sure.

Ben has never bruised me before... only left red marks... and let me tell ya.... I'm all for it!