this girl's life

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if I were to die tomorrow...

If I were to die tomorrow... I could look back and say.... I lived my life the best way I knew how.

I knew love and hurt.... I knew how good a hard days work felt.

I would know how good basking in the summer sun feels on your skin.. and how that can turn a bad day around.

I would know that I was lucky... lucky to have a wonderful husband that comes home to me every night... that shows me everyday just how much he loves me... that there is nothing he would not do for me.

I would know the joy being a parent brings.... the way they do something silly or kind... and it makes your heart explode with such love... such pride... such devotion.

I would know that sometimes people hurt you for no other good reason than to just do it.... and that all you can really do is move forward.

I would know the heartache of losing a parent to death... but also would have come to the realization of just how much he meant to me.

I would have known that friends aren't always forever.. and that few things are.

I would have known what it was like to come from nothing... to work hard to overcome that... and be better off in life than I ever expected.

I would know that a pet is a wonderful thing to have... to love... they too have a special place in ones life.. just like a family member.

I would know that love is powerful... and even though it does not conquer all.... the world would be a sad... empty place without it.

I would know that I loved my life... that I wouldn't change it.. even the hard times.

I would know that I had not seen all the places I wanted, but that I sure was trying.

I would have known what it felt like to laugh until I cried... until my chest hurt from doing so.

I would have known how wonderful sex is... and that it can be an Earth shattering thing.

I would have known how taking part in a snowball fight makes you feel like your ten again.

I would have known what true beauty is... and that it is really hard to put into words.... and how that beauty takes your breath away.

I would know that sometimes you just have to cry... sometimes its the only thing that will take the weight off you in that moment.

I would have known... I was true to me and my family... that the things that were most important to me were always number one... that no matter how many years I was lucky enough to live on this world... I lived... every moment of each day.. and that is all I can do... is just be.