waves of emotion

As of late, I have mentioned (0r I think I have!) the level of stress around my life right now. It's kept me from posting.. kept us from having our normal sex life.. so yes, it has not been fun.

Sunday night we were watching tv... I felt very distant and disconnected from Ben. I really didn't know why... and it sucked to say the least. When we finally decided it was time to head to bed we showered then retired to our room.

Normally when we lay down we're both on our backs... but slowly we both rolled so that we were facing each other. Ben was being so tender... rubbing my back gently... softly caressing my face. I needed it. I needed to feel connected to him again. I don't typically get to feeling this way... but I was.

It's strange really... we are both living the same stress with the exception of the stress from work for me. Yet, he still was right along side of me... and I was dealing with this on my own.. even though I had no idea this is what I had done.

His touch soon turned to a petting of sort.. with a sexual undertone. I started to feel lost in his arms... echoing in my head I kept wanting him to just grab the back of my neck and do what he wanted... to recenter me.

We started kissing heavily... passion was oozing from every inch of our bodies. And then he did it... his hand gripped the back of my neck. I melted. His other hand roamed.. pinching my nipples... teasing my pussy. I wanted him inside of me... but I really did not want him to stop his onslaught of my body.

His lips parted from mine and down my neck he kissed roughly... I felt his teeth sink into my shoulder and I let out a whimper. I breathed in deep... trying not to beg him to stop... after all.. this is what I had been wanting.. what I had been missing.

I squirmed under him... trying to push him off some... but all this got me was my hands held up over my head leaving my body exposed to his every whim. His other hand had stopped at my pussy again... pinching the delicate lips making me writhe in pain.

Make no question... I was drenched and loving every minute of it.

My hands were released but I found that seconds later his hand cupped my mouth and nose blocking off air and muffling my whining noises. I wanted to scream... but I didn't want him to stop.

When he took his hands away, I gasped for air. There was down time.. he grabbed my ponytail and shoved my face onto his stiff cock. He shoved his hardness to the back of my throat causing me to gag. I pulled back gasping for air but was pulled back onto him.

"That's right, you take that cock", he ordered.

He fucked my face hard and rough. I felt dizzy but turned on immensely. I don't know how much time passed but when he pulled out he moved me quickly so that he could fuck me. He had climbed off the bed leaving me on my hands and knees... ass in the air, begging for him to fill me with his cock.

He took no time... and slammed into my wet pussy. He was not gentle anymore... fucking me hard... pounding into my body. His hands dug into my hips pulling himself deep inside me. I was in heaven... I was so elated.

After a bit he snatched out of me mid stride and I was left feeling empty and wanting more. He commanded me to get on my knees and suck him some more... I quickly got to my knees. I took him into my mouth again... tasty my juices on him. His hand was on the back of my head keeping me at the depth that he wanted. I gently cupped his balls as he fucked my face again.

Soon he told me he was going to come... and I sucked even harder wanting to feel his cock explode in my mouth. I was soon rewarded. I swallowed every last bit and wrapped my arms around his waist.... and laid my head against his leg.

He helped me up on the bed, getting between my legs. He ran his finger over my clit then plunged a few into my wetness. His other hand rubbed my legs... just in the way that he knows does the trick.

My fingers roamed down south helping him by stimulating my clit. I felt amazing... but felt anxiety at the same time. I'm not sure why. The room was warm... and after I awhile I cried out that I couldn't cum.

I felt exasperated. I wanted to cum... but I was so stress ridden that it wasn't going to happen. Ben shushed me soothingly and told me to breathe. So, I took a deep breath and started rubbing again.... his motions had not stopped... he was not giving up.

I rubbed methodically... making sure to take deep breaths. Before I knew it I could feel the wave of a powerful orgasm coming. Two more rubs and the wave broke over me.... so powerful it left my head spinning... and then it happened. I began sobbing... hard and uncontrollably.

"I need you", I cried out with my hands extended needing him to hold me. He climbed on top of me and my arms went around him. I felt safe... I felt loved.... I felt relief.

He laid down beside me... arms wrapped again me and let me cry. He asked what was wrong... and honestly... I had not known till then just how stressed out I had been. The sobs subsided soon. He laid next to me the whole time... touching me... my face.. trying to make me feel better... and I did.

I've always known I would be lost without him.. but in that very moment... I really knew how deep that need and want was. He is my rock. He grounds me. We had reconnected... I had gotten what I needed... and he had been the giver of this.