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a picture tells a thousand words

We showed our family pictures from our trip yesterday while we were over for Easter. While showing off these pictures I noticed something.. something you don't notice when you actually take them. I saw all the other people that were not my family in them.... the ones that just happen to be in the shot, simply because there were near when I decided to snap a memory.

After realizing this.. I went through delibritely looking at those other people... at the expressions that I captured. It made me wonder what moment I had in front of me... what part of their day they were in... and how their trip was going. Were they happy times?

Then of course, it made me wonder... how many photographs one of us appear in... just by chance. Will they notice as I did.. and remark at our family? Or will we just be a back drop in their happy memory? AND how many times in my life... on any of the number of vacations I have been on... how many pictures that are not mine have I been in?

And so I will never know who these people are that co-star in the moments of our trip... will never know who they are.. where they are from... none of that. They will merely be a face I took... that will forever be a part of the physical things I have to show from our brief time at Disneyland.

one more in what will be a long line

Today is our anniversary. :-) We won't be having too much time together today as Ben has to work late... and I have to work tomorrow.. but we will be making the most of what little we do get. It's one of those things that seems like... wow.. we've been together that long... but in the same instance it really does seem longer.. in a good way of course. It seems like we've been with one another for years upon years.. that we are so much apart of each other.. that being apart is not something that even makes sense anymore.

I just have to say... I love that man... so much.. words do not describe how I feel. When I kiss him... my breath is still stolen.... and my heart flutters. I still miss him insanely when we are not together. We still text each other each morning and call on lunches. I don't think that I could have found a more well suited partner if I had been looking.

I wanted to share with you all... the words I spoke to my husband on the day we were joined in marriage. We wrote our own vows.. and I spent weeks writing and revising.. just to get them perfect. In the end... I was proud of the words that fell from my lips... and filled with such joy and love... seeing his reaction. Even now it makes me misty to think back on that day... that wonderful day.

My darling Ben- to say that my heart is yours from this day forward would be wrong, because it's always been yours since the day I met you. How do I sum up how I feel in a few words? It would never do our love justice. I don't promise to one or two things... I promise my everything. I promise to be your most loyal friend despite what may come our way. I will be honest and faithful to you. I vow to respect you for your uniqueness and be by your side, encouraging you to strive to always be your best and comfort you when you stumble. I will be there to wipe away the your tears and spend endless hours laughing with you. I will give you my best to build a life with you, to grow old with you along life's journey. But most importantly, I promise to love and cherish you every day of my life because without you I would never be complete.


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Ben.....

I love you more than I did yesterday.... you are so special to me. We've come so far... and have so much further to go... thank your for being you. Happy Anniversary my darling.

Pinch me baby one more time

In the darkness of our room... laying in bed.. our bodies touching.... I felt his hand snake up my side and to my nipple. He toyed with it gently... taking the protrusion between his fingers and teasing it. I let out a little sigh at the unexpected contact.

It wasn't long before the soft handling became rough... when the rolling of my nipple became a pinch and a tug. My back bowed under the onslaught... but there was not mistaking my growing lust. As the pain shot through my body, it only made me want more... no... need more.

He took my hand and placed it on his cock... a little nudge that I should be doing something... not just laying there enjoying my treatment. I happily started to stroke as his other hand made its way to my pussy.

He dipped his fingers in slowly finding it already wet and waiting. His thumb rested on my clit.. making little circles as the other ones moved in and out taunting my hole. The other hand magically appeared down south as well... taking a grip on the tender flesh. He pinched hard and I gasped at the sudden change in pain. I have a love hate relationship with any sort of suffering surrounding my pussy.

Soon both hands were working me over... pinching and pulling... extracting any and every ounce of affliction they could. I tried hard to stay focused on my task at hand.. stroking his cock was the only thing that was keeping me where I was... and not ten feet away in agony. The funny thing about that is... if I were to flee... I would only be longing to be back... enduring what he was giving me.

He seemed quite pleased with himself.... enjoying causing such pain on his sweet little wife.

"I love hurting your pussy", he said... cocky as he could be. I felt a surge through my body that went straight to my groin.

Again, one of his hands migrated.. this time covering my nose and mouth.... I drew in a deep breath knowing what his movement meant. This time he tugged on my cunt lips really hard and a muffled scream escaped. His hand pressed down harder as I tried to compose myself under the conditions. He repeated this several times.

Soon he was pulling away from me and getting off the bed... dragging my body with him. My mouth took his waiting cock all the way in as he began to fuck my face at a steady rhythm. His hands slide down my back... lifted slightly... then slapped down on my ass. I yelped mid suck but didn't miss a beat on keeping him in my mouth.

Another slap... then another... alternating between each side... then down the middle... which I hate... I loath... and not in a good way. I cannot begin to describe how much that hurts, and I'm not sure why.

I wiggled... hoping that he would move onto other places... luckily he did.... for then. He then drug his fingertips up my back... from the base to my shoulders... scratching me with what little nails he has.... I was in heaven.... it was exactly what I needed... to take away from the discomfort of the spanking.

It was not to last long as his hand swung down on my ass again... as I cried out... him still fucking my face. Again, moving side to side... giving equal attention to each. When he tired of that he flipped me over on my back, my head hanging off the side of the bed.

He slid easily into my mouth... returning to the business of fucking my face... causing me to gag and sputter as he hit the back of my throat. Ben's fingers twisted my nipples briefly before inching down to my sopping cunt.

"Lets see if you can cum while I hurt your pussy", he said. My hand went obediently down to my clit... making circles while he tugged on my pussy lips again. I made fast little circles... knowing I was already pretty worked up. It wasn't long before my body was convulsing from the mixture of pleasure and pain... and oh what a wonderful mix it was.

He didn't let up though... he kept on. He pinched and pulled and tugged until there my face was wet with tears and begging him to stop- only for him to ask me if I really wanted him to stop. Which of course, I didn't. I wanted him to hurt me.. just as much as he wanted to.

This went on for a bit longer before he turned my body so that he could enter me... my legs draped over his shoulders. He fucked me hard as I dug my fingers into the bed... screaming out. All the while he was still torturing my flesh..... making my body bow under his touch.

It wasn't long before he was shooting his cum deep insde of me.... not long before I wrapped my legs around him to keep him from leaving.... not long before I felt so weak I could bearly crawl up to our pillows.... not long before I was wrapped in my lovers arms....

here I be...

There is a skip in my step... a smile where there was not one before... a laughter that fills my soul.... and a smile that graces my face. I tell you... vacation did wonders for me. I was really getting to a point where going to work was much more of a drag than usual. I just really needed some time away. Yes, I had taken a vacation six months ago.. but the holidays are particularly busy for me at work.... and so that six months felt more like a year.

I find that I'm much happier at work right now (for however that may actually last). It really is a nice feeling... to be somewhat happy about being where you work. I know there has been many times over the last year where I have just loathed being there for one reason or another. It seems that it may be turning around... and for that I am happy.... happy that I waited it out.

It really amazes me what a little extended time off can do for one's demeanor. Now if I could only get time off each month.... how happy would I be then? *laughs* So for now... all is right with the world but with that comes a lack of stuff to write about.... I'm in that rut of writer's block again. I really hate that too... because I really WANT to write.. I want the words to come rolling off my finger tips and into the computer... like a well sung song. And yet... here I sit.. blabbering about nothing...

Perhaps.. I can attribute this to so much going on in my head... I'm running head first into another busy time of year... filled with birthdays.. anniversaries.... and graduation *shudders* (what an evil thing that graduation time). I sit and I weigh what goes through my mind and wonder if it is really that blog worthy... I mean.. who really wants to hear about the new guy at work... that I can't figure out if he's gay.. or if he's submissive (not that they go hand in hand by any means!). Or who wants to hear about Ben's stupid car alarm going off in the middle of each night.. several times. I mean.. seriously.

So instead you get to read my rambling... about nothing.. just something to fill the page.. to get me to the next hopeful post... I'm sorry!

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home.. and back to work

Sigh... vacation always go too quickly. We got home on Sunday morning... and spent that day and Monday busy getting things back in order.. getting groceries... and what not.. so not a whole lot of down time.

I went back to work today... which is a bummer. I really could have used another 2 or so days off to rest up from the trip.. but such is life. Time to get back to the grind stone. But I can bask in the glow of another great vacation. We had such a great time... I took like 700 pics... I'm kinda picture crazy. I know I was driving the kids nuts I'm sure... "hey.. go stand over there... and there!".

So yeah... I don't have a lot to talk about.. I do have a post in the back of my head... but I'm feeling kinda anxious.. and typing isn't really something I want to do right now... sooooooooooo that is for another time.

Just wanted to say a little something.. things should get back to normal around here now that I'm home.. which is a good and bad thing lol.

taking tired to a whole new level



So we're over halfway through our trip.. tomorrow is our last day at Disney. If I had to pick a word to describe it... whirlwind. Its been go, go, go. We drop like flies when we get back to the rental house... I haven't been this exhausted in a really long time. BUT.... we've had so much fun... and I can honestly say that this has been a trip of a lifetime.

I am truly happy that we got to do this... its been a great time. There has been a few bumps (some grumpiness on everyone's part... a few rides breaking down... a bust on our beach day) but really... in the grand scheme of things.. its really no big deal.

I'm also very thankful that my niece and nephew came along.. because its been so nice having them around... not only because they are cool kids.. but because they've been good to help buffer some of our kids' excitement and such. I just know that this trip wouldn't have been as fun had they not been here.. and for that... I'm happy.

Tired.. but happy lol.

So yeah, there was no point to this post.. other than to check in... say hi... and blab. So yeah.... till another time...